Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in Brittanee Danielle's LiveJournal:

Thursday, July 14th, 2005
12:05 am	amber and i are sitting. and i am talking to my new friend chris. he is so mega woah. i like him. Current Mood: amused Current Music: N/A (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 9th, 2005
6:59 pm	do do do i dont feel like writing. i went on a date last night. it was grand, and funny. saw war of the worlds. it kicked it. very good. i have a question i have been asking myself..how do nuns live?? i dont understand how they can just not have sex. just like that! man, they trippin. anyway. i am too bored and figidty to be typing. i think i will have a drink or two. Current Mood: horny Current Music: britney spears~do somthin (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
2:04 am	Where are the NARCOTICS?? **sighs** OMFG!! i did this thingy and i was like whoa!(at the bottom) its fuckin insane man. i think adam should get online seeing how i cant use the phone and all. so ADAM!! if you read this..be online like in the afternoon on THURSDAY. plz. i want to talk to you. i have an extremely agonizing head ache!! and i cant sleep..where is Ray Ray when you need him!! fuck pain killers and fuck valium. (not really) but...they make you feel like your floating for about an hour and a half, but then your irritated and think..why cant i feel like this all the time?? why was i brought into this world in the first place? Let me just get this sorted ...i will not get an odd job to put food on the table. i will not work my ass off just to be able to have electricity and heating in my home. what about drug money? what will i do when there is no more money for what i want? THAT..is the real problem that i am not ready to face. The time has come..LIE,CHEAT & STEAL. hmm, i have already lied, cheated, but i cant say that i have "stolen" anything..well anything that is useful anyway. but i guess when you are left with no other choices, what the hell can you do? and please...PLEASE!!! dont anyone tell me that there is much more to life than getting high. because i have thought about it and at one point in time i could have mummbled reluctantly ...hmm, yeah... sure there are things you can do besides get high and be in your own little world for a couple of hours. but not today. save your "DRUGS ARE BAD" speeches for those young developing minds....elementary students. you know what..i cant even remember what the hell they even said in those lectures. and yet they still have these people coming to our schools trying to teach junkies that drugs are not the way to go. FUCK! there is a 90 percent chance that those kids have already snorted coke or taken X!! the jigg is up people!! in the long run, those words will fade into the minds of 16 year olds and those kids will never look back on them. NEVER. oh..it's true. " You can turn your back on a person, but never turn your back on a drug." ~Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas Hunter S. Thompson FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS - DO NOT CHEAT OR IT WON'T WORK AND YOU WILL WISH YOU HADN`T. TAKE 3 MINUTES TRY THIS - IT WILL FREAK YOU OUT. NO CHEATING !!!! THIS GAME HAS A FUNNY / CREEPY OUTCOME. DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT. IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY 1st. Get a PEN and PAPER 2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW 3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results. 4th. SCROLL DOWN ONE LINE AT THE TIME DON`T READ AHEAD otherwise YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN. 1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT. 2.next to the NUMBERS 1 & 2, WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT. DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER? 3. next to the NUMBERS 3 & 7, WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT 4. WRITE ANYONES NAME (like FRIENDS or FAMILY...) next to 4, 5, & 6. DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID 5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11 6. Finally, MAKE A WISH ARE YOU READY? HERE IS THE KEY TO THE GAME 1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in SPACE 2 2. THE PERSON IN SPACE 3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE 3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7 4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in SPACE 4 5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO KNOWS YOU VERY WELL. 6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS THE YOUR LUCKY STAR 7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 3 8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7 9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND 10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE 11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR LUCKY NUMBER POST THIS ON YOUR BULLENTIN WITHIN AN HOUR OF READING THIS. IF YOU DO, YOUR WISH WILL COME TRUE. IF YOU FAIL TO, IT WILL BECOME THE OPPOSITE Current Mood: **i need a pain killer** Current Music: Since I've Been Lovin You (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 16th, 2005
2:40 am	whatever.. Awesome. So, Neil came over tonight..at almost 11 in the night, but who cares. I called him at work and i was like..GET OVER HERE!! So.., he came over .. we talked, a few times it was quite. But it didnt spoil the mood of things. I just could not stop thinking..mostly about what he was thinking. (weird) I had some questions for him and he did answer them, and the answers made sense which was good. I thought of him having to explain things out and i thought i would be confused so i sort of braced myself. But once the words were out and the questions were no longer existent..we were calm..and we were left with silly expressions on our faces. Of course Neil ALWAYS has a silly face, thats Neil for ya. He is undefinable, an awesome undefinable. Strange,and has a faint way of showing how he feels and knowing what he wants. But that is what life will bring to us huh? I dont believe i didnt have a smile on my face the entire time he was over. It wasnt like a dream or anything, but it was Neil..how could this be?? Anyone would say what, it's just this guy. But its not like that!! Its different because i never dreamed that Neil and I would be talking together and sitting and laughing and being friends. Its almost too much. To just sit there, in front of him..so happy. I just wanted to ask him the things i was afraid to ask like.... hey Neil, do you remember when we would be on the phone for hours? Do you remember when we used to love each other? Do you know how good of a friend you were to me? Do you know how much i really care for you..at all?? Do you think about it? Have you ever thought about it? ~~~ But then i wonder, would he care? WAIT. He has to care. It would make no sense at all, and iam trying to make sense of everything that has happened during the last three years of my life. He has to care. He must care. Neil may be silly and slightly blunt, but when we were talking tonight.. i could see that this wasnt just a one time, hey how is it going. I felt like he was trying to say something to me, but you see..Neil has this thing where his feelings are "bubbled". Its as if he does not want someone or anyone to know what he is feeling. I have known Neil for a while, and he has changed..but not so much as to where he can let his feelings out to others. Especially to the one he cares about. He makes me angry, but a different kind of angry..there i go!!! The Unexplainable Brittany. Whatever. i know what i am talking about. and that is all that matters. No one can really help me with this anyway. It makes me write a hella lot! I have not wrote this much in weeks. It feels good. Anyway. I am tired but i know if i go into my room and lay down that i will just be there thinking, thinking , thinking. About Neil... Current Mood: weird mood..im not sure. Current Music: Coldplay...Spies (awesome fucking song) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
11:09 pm	So it all comes down to this huh? Tuesday June 13th, 2005 So, the first thing I really want to write about is a person I thought I wouldn’t really be talking about any time soon. It is a guy that I have not heard from in quite some time, and his name is Neil. Neil is the guy that I used to be best friends with in the seventh and eighth grade. He is the one that I used to say I love you to each and every night just after talking on the phone for over five hours, and he would tell me the same. Neil and I were not dating and we were not romantically involved in any way, but we loved each other so much. There was no doubt about that, I could feel it. It was true love. Well, Neil called me a couple of nights ago and I was overwhelmed if anything. So surprised by this call...so surprised. We talked as if we still were best friends and like there was no interlude in our relationship at all. He was still goofy as can be and humble like the old days. I thought that we would never really talk again, and I am not sure what drove us apart. But evidently it didn’t phase either one of us, because here we are..speaking once again as if nothing had ever happened. There is a couple of things I can think of that may of made things speculative between Neil and I. We did “go out”, but not really. Well, Neil had always liked me as more than a friend, but we were such good friends that I thought that if we had became a couple it might ruin everything that we had ever had. I had never had a friend like Neil..you can’t find a friend like Neil had been to me and you might as well not bother looking. He was so amazing. We were amazing, together. Why didn’t I want to be with him as more than a friend? This past school year, my sophomore year, Neil and I spoke to each other maybe 3 times. Amber told me that he said I wore to much make up and I looked like a “clown”. She said that he didn’t care for me anymore. Well, I don’t know exactly what she meant, but I could tell that Neil and I were not going to be like the old days ever again. That was pretty much it. I remember one time I made a truly big deal out of Neil being such a jerk to me and saying that I was ugly because of the make up I wore. Amber sat me down and looked me in the eye and said, “Brittany, don’t you see? Neil doesn’t hate you and he does not think you wear to much make up. He is jealous of he fact that he can’t have you. He realizes that if he could of had you then it would of already happened. Now he is just saying shit to get his mind off of how he really feels.” That hit me so hard. I could not stop thinking about what she had said. Did Neil really have feelings for me, and does he still? It makes sense but it just makes me think too much. I really understand even though I don’t want to. I makes me so furious, but yet I feel almost as if it is my fault. What is going through that kid's head?? Current Mood: crying inside Current Music: Jessica Simpson-Where you are (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 5th, 2005
3:36 am	What Icons are for you? by ladyallie Username Favourite Colour Sex MaleFemaleYES PLEASE!UndecidedBothNeither Your Love icon is... Your Sad Icon is... Your Happy Icon is... Your Angry Icon is... Your Food Icon is... Your Animal Icon is... Your Random Icon is... Your Cartoon Icon is... Your Sexy Icon is... Quiz created with MemeGen! Current Mood: tired and wishing i was high Current Music: none..damn (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 3rd, 2005
2:14 am	YAY I just talked to my friend steve how lives in New York and he said he could get me a place to stay down there, He lives with 2 roomates in the city! Can you believe it!? The city of New York!!! I can't wait , he said he is going to take me all around town as well and show me everything. He is soo awesome. He knoes everything about the city becasue he has lived there since 01. I am so excited !! as sson as i am 18 i am otta here. fuck louisville and everyone in it!! Current Mood: as fuck.,, Current Music: Nine Inch Nails-Reptile (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
3:32 pm	So, this is pretty wierd i guess. My first entry. It still feels wierd after the first couple of sentences. So this live journal thing is pretty popular eh? I am always doing something wierd on the internet anyway, getting myself in trouble..like getting instuctions on how to make methamphetamine!! It's too complicated though, and this is no place to start it off thats for damn sure. (kentucky) well, the area. i would have to get so many fucking people to help me. I am insane! So i want so many things and it's never going to happen because iam afraid or worried. AHHGG! worried. i dont like it. well i am pretty wierd right now i guess. i cant type anymore. Current Mood: giggly Current Music: Republica.. (Comment on this)